Archive for August, 2009

Progress Halted…

August 26, 2009

So, here’s what happened…

I was taking my hormones, becoming a girl, and loving it. Then, my wife stopped loving me, since she didn’t want to be with a woman. So, I had two choices. One, I could kep doing what I was doing, divorce my wife, and be a happy woman, but miss my wife terribly. Two, I could quit becoming a girl and get my wife back. I was working toward option one – almost fled the state to live full time as a girl with a friend, even. But, my heart beat me down and I couldn’t stand the thought of losing my Mrs. So, for better or for worse, I quit taking my hormones about 45 days after I started. My body has slowly returned to its male self, though I contend there is still a bit of unmale fat on my chest. They say that once fat cells expand, they never go back to the way they were (also, I have a VERY small bit of breast development under my right nipple, but you really have to feel closely to tell its there).

Anywho,  did I make the right decision? I have no idea. Some friends say I did, some say I didn’t. Only time will tell. I know that my situation is a terrible catch 22. I want my cake and to eat it, too. If I eat my cake, though, I won’t have any. Shit. Being trans sucks.